|
|
Saturday, July 4th, 2009
| |
12:22 am - I'm gonna learn to dance and drink and smoke a cigarette~♪
|
I love Carol Channing. And Rosalind Russell. And Audrey Hepburn. And Elizabeth Taylor.
But I still love Katherine Hepburn the best <3<3<3
And phooey on Lana Turner.
...god, I am so gay...
current mood:  amused
current music: Carol Channing - So Long Dearie
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Friday, July 3rd, 2009
| |
12:47 am
|
I think I've given up on writing con reports. I never have the energy to do them right after a con, and much longer after, I don't remember it all. Maybe I'll start taking notes at the end of each day at cons.
Houston Pride was kinda a bust because I missed the festival. Which I mostly blame my mother for. She made us really late. She also started talking to my grandmother about going to Pride at lunch the next day and had this horribly puzzled and maybe almost hurt face when I had a very intense shut-the-hell-up glare on my face. I'm not an idiot. She's probably told my grandmother I'm gay. But I haven't told her, and I don't really plan on doing so. I don't know why I have a problem. I know she wouldn't care. But for some reason I do.
So I think I've pissed off my Speech teacher. We had to make these signs, right, that we're supposed to hold up during people's speeches to tell them to speed up, slow down, etc. And she apparently decided we were going to vote on everyone's signs as a class. And I thought that was kind of stupid, as a classroom is never a democracy, it's always an autocracy. But whatever. She said we could vote from 1 to 5, 1 being 100, 5 being an 80 (the lowest we could get on this assignment). We started with my signs, since I'm at the top of the roster, and people disagreed with what my grade should be, so the teacher started to write up on the board next to the grades what requirements each grade should have; like a 1 should be bold, colorful, creative, etc. That's when I was like, "Uh, no. You can't assign grading criteria after an assignment is complete." The teacher and a lot of the class looked at me as if I were insane. The teacher actually looked at me and said "Are you serious?" I tried to make it clear I didn't care if they gave me a 50 on my signs, but one can't assign specifications to an assignment after it's already completed. One guy who sat behind me apparently especially had a problem with this and kept trying to argue that "bolding the signs just makes common sense." My argument was that be that as it may, it wasn't assigned before the assignment was turned in. Eventually she caved in and erased criteria off the board and people just voted how they felt, which is all I wanted. I don't think she actually saw my point, I think she was just tired of my argument (which I wasn't going to back down on, because I was right).
What angers me the most about this is that that day's lecture was on Ethics. How on Earth was what she was trying to pull ethical?
She pisses me off anyway because she told us the first day her degree was in English (or something, I forget), with a minor in Journalism, which qualified her to teach Communication courses, but since her major was in English she'd be very focused on grammar and spelling, and while she wasn't going to count off for that for the class, that was what she specialized in so she might mark it on our papers anyway. And I have not seen ONE thing that this bitch has typed up or handed out that has not had a dozen grammar and/or spelling mistakes on it.
I am SO very tired of being smarter and more educated than the people teaching me, who have a degree. At least at UTSA, I could count on the professors knowing more than I did, and definitely be more learned. Now in some classes I feel like I'm being taught by special ed students. That sounds so stuck up, and believe me, I'm not saying I'm perfect, but GOD, I know I'm better than she!
On an unrelated and happier note, the Popslash bug has bitten me once again, but I know it won't last long, because my favorite pairing isn't as popular as others. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe a disappointing but good thing. *wants more well-writen JoLa in his life*
I'm starting to get stressed out about so many things piling up; Mechacon is near the end of this month, and I have lots of responsibilities there, the least of which is driving seven hours to get there and then seven hours to get back by myself. I'm really REALLY hoping someone will be able to go with me. On top of the trip, I'm participating in a couple panels, assisting the cosplay director (Jessi), judging cosplay, and acting as Kyouya for the Ouran Hosted Ball. Gonna be busy! But at least I get to go to the con for free, ya?
At least I don't have any new cosplay to make, really. I was contemplating using my maid outfit and making Finny's CatBoy!Maid outfit from episode 2 of Kuroshitsuji since all I'd have to do is make the apron, cuffs, collar, ears, and tail, but even that feels like a lot of work with my commission, and I don't think anyone would recognize me anyway. I do have my make my mobster kodona, but that's just closet cosplay. I'll probably take Allegretto's new outfit, even if I can't compete.
San Japan is another story. I have to make an Apollo Justice suit for ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) skasumi's, Derek's, and my Apollo Justice group, an outfit which I'm also using for Catz's and Eri's skit. I'll be so happy once San Japan is over and I can cut my hair off. Zell is going to be retired for quite some time unless a really hot man!Seifer asks me to wear it. I love wearing Zell, he's easy and comfortable and fun, and I've had some great successes with my three Squalls (and one Qustis!) and that big group from Oni (who also had another Squall), but I want to move on to other costumes and cut my hair, dammit.
I have no idea what I'm doing for A-fest or Oni. At least I already have Yulecon all planned out and made. Oni requires Halloween-themed cosplay, and I have no inspiration as of yet. It'd help if I knew who was going so we could brainstorm. I have been thinking of redoing Hatsuharu for a while now, but that requires a new coat, two new wigs, and modifying my chaps. I dunno. We'll have to see. If I can get more Furuba characters with me, I'd have more motivation. But at the moment, I need to worry about my commission, and Apollo!
...that turned out much more ramble-y than I wanted it to.
current mood:  stressed
current music: Heart - These Dreams
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, July 1st, 2009
| |
10:57 pm - No real update for you
|
|
| Thursday, June 25th, 2009
| |
2:43 am
|
I'm very discouraged. Epic people tend to make me so. I know I should be inspired or amazed by them, but all I can think is of how jealous I am. I guess I started really cosplaying later than they, only really starting seriously in 2005 or so, but still, tell that to my emotions.
One of the cosplay guests for San Japan is apparently attending University of Houston majoring in Costume Design under their theatre department. That's... that's something I want to do. I want to get a bachelor's for costuming, and a master's.
I've been thinking about further education recently, after I graduate here. I know I want to go to UT, but they only offer a master's program in costume design. Which means, of course, I need a bachelor's first. I've been kinda thinking about a bachelor's in Theatre Arts, but then my old insecurities come back and beat me down, telling me I can't act, I can't sing, I definitely can't dance, I don't have the body or face to be photographed without tones of Photoshop; that I can barely sew; that I'm so pathetic and lazy and talentless at everything I do and so sick that I can't keep up with everyone else; that I should just give up and die, basically. And I guess part of this is coming from the fact that my medicine isn't built up in my system right now (all the pain I've been having lately would support that as well), but that doesn't mean this isn't how I feel. The meds help me feel better and give my brain the kick it needs, but it's still very depressing to me to sit back and look at where I am and what I feel I can do and feel so utterly insignificant and pointless.
According to the College Board's website, there are only five colleges in Texas offering undergraduate studies in Costume Design. Apparently they're missing at least one, since DugFinn (the lady I mentioned earlier) is going to U of H for it as well.
That may be where I end up, back in Houston. Because I don't really want to leave Texas. And I don't want to stay in SA, nor do I want to go to a private college since they're so expensive (there's a college here in San Antonio, Trinity University, that offers Costuming, but it's outrageously expensive.
I don't know. I know for now I should just be concentrating on what I'm doing and get through that, but I just can't help but feel trepidation about what comes next. And feel that there's something more for me, if I could only get that break.
I think I have too many dreams. Costume Designer, Actor, Singer, Entrepreneur/Shop Owner... there's no reason I can't be all of them, but to be truly great at one means sacrifice at the others. And there's no reason I can't be happy with just one.
But I don't want to settle.
current mood:  discouraged
current music: Last Five Years Original Off-Broadway Cast Recording - See I'm Smiling
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| |
2:34 am
|
|
| Sunday, June 21st, 2009
| |
3:57 am
|
Crap. I just remembered Harry Potter comes out next month. And me still without my Slytherin robes.
Oh well, something to add to the list to get done (in my copious amounts of spare time).
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
| Saturday, June 20th, 2009
| |
4:45 pm
|
I am so exhausted. But that's my own fault, really.
This has been my week off from school and I guess I didn't realize how much I needed some down time. I was going to go into school and draft a pattern for next term ahead of time, but I just haven't felt like it. I haven't felt like doing much of anything besides watching movies. So that's pretty much what I've been doing this week.
Starting Monday I head back to class. I'm taking four classes this term, but they should all be easy ones, with no real homework to speak of, except Construction II. I have class Monday afternoon, Tuesday evening, Wednesday afternoon, and Thursday afternoon, but I'm going to try and get Thursday morning classes instead so I can get a jump start on traveling when I leave for Houston Pride and Mechacon... and A-fest...
Do you realize I have one con a month per month starting next month and stopping in December? Mecha in July, San Japan in August, A-Fest in September, Onicon Halloween weekend, and Yulecon in November. Whyyyyyyy do I do this to myself? Oh yeah, and there's a new con in Austin sometime in there too I may go to for the day. I have no idea what I'm going to wear to A-Fest or Onicon. Oni needs new Halloween-themed cosplay, yes it does! No point in going to a con Halloween weekend and not have themed costumes!
Back to my classes, I'm taking Pattern Drafting II, Textiles, Speech, and the aforementioned Construction II. So far I've been able to work on cosplay all at school pretty much, lol. I made my Chopin pants and my Wiccan bag in Construction I, and I'll be making Kaoru's school jacket and Waltz's tunic for Construction II (we may have a third project, but that depends on time). And I may try and draft out Chopin's coat for my final project in Pattern Drafting II. That'd be great.
So... I'm going to try and do some sketching today and we'll see how that goes. Also need to try and get my sleep cycle back on track. It's pretty messed up.
current mood:  exhausted
current music: Chrono Cross - Dreamwatch of Time
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, June 18th, 2009
| |
1:24 am - FFVIII Photoshoot from A-kon 20 is done!
|
You can click here to see my dA gallery with my favs, and you can click here to see the shoot in its entirety. Because I am lazy and don't feel like posting them all directly here.
Brian also prepared two special things that are funny, that are only on his dA: a cosplay comic and a tribute to Queen!
Feel free to leave comments here!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: The Last Five Years OOBCR - See I'm Smiling
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, June 16th, 2009
| |
3:42 pm - <3
|
If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.
current mood:  drained
current music: Kristine W - FLY AGAIN (RALPHI'S rosario MIX)
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Saturday, June 13th, 2009
| |
1:52 am
|
|
Note to self: bottles of carbonated beverages are prone to exploding when left inside vehicles on hot Texas Summer days. Apparently.
|
|
(9 comments | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, June 11th, 2009
| |
4:54 pm - It's the fire-breathing at the end that gets me.
|
current mood: amused
current music: Kosheen - I Want it All
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, June 10th, 2009
| |
1:45 am
|
Okay, seriosuly, I need y'all's harsh opinions.
I'm at a point where I'm interested in several different cosplays that are, for all intents and purposes, catsuits.
I know I'm not incredibly skinny, especially like a lot of anime guys are; I never will be, because I don't have that body type or frame. I just want to be sure I won't be all over 4chan Sunday night after a con is over and being labeled a walrus or anything.
So... what I'm asking is for you to leave a comment, anonymously if you wish (IP addresses are not logged, I don't think), and tell me what you think. Or just vote in the poll. Like I said, I know I'm not ripped or a skinny bitch. I just don't want to look ridiculous if I indeed do these cosplays at some point in the near future.
( Photos inside, not dial-up friendly )
Poll #1413734 Catsuit Cosplay
This poll is closed.
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: AllWould doing catsuit cosplay cause me to be the laughing stock of 4chan by then end of the con because I'm too fat?
Oops, nevermind! I forgot I had an old neoprene wetsuit that smooths everything out quite nicely! Thanks for what I'm sure were going to be honest, supportive answers though!
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, June 9th, 2009
| |
2:54 am
|
|
| |
1:58 am
|
Note to self:
Planned cosplays for Mechacon (so far)
- Catboy!Maid!Finny from Kuroshitsuji (ep 3)
- Mobster Kodona
- Albino Decora for rave
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| |
12:59 am - A Survey for the Rest of Us
|
Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?! 'Have you ever kissed someone? Missed someone? Told someone you loved them? Drank alcohol?'
Quoth the Duckie: "Holy cow! Yes! Yes I am! Tell me more! :O"
( A survey for us older bloggers )
current mood:  blah
current music: Bjork - Sun in my Mouth
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| Monday, June 8th, 2009
| |
8:03 pm
|
|
| Sunday, June 7th, 2009
| |
9:53 pm
|
Well, I just got turned down by San Japan for doing any panels. They said they already had seven cosplay panels. I'm probably more upset over this than I should be, but I was really looking forward to doing those panels, or at least one of them. I really thought I had an in, too, what with 1) winning best craftsmanship last year, 2) knowing two people who are working with San Japan (Randy and Catz) and 3) already helping with a panel this year.
*sigh*
Maybe next year. I guess.
I still hate my Finny wig, btw :p
Gotta go do homework, or else I'ma fail.
current mood: disappointed
|
|
(6 comments | comment on this)
|
| Saturday, June 6th, 2009
| |
1:08 am - From sanctuarymemory
|
rules:
1. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper on their Livejournal.
2. Explain in five sentences on why you're using that wallpaper!
3. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!
( NSFW; non-graphic, but suggestive, nudity )
Um, I like Masanori. I like bara. I like guys. I'm a guy and therefore like quasi-porn? There's nothing really deep here, just pretty sexy men I'm using as decoration...with muscles...and tanlines.
current mood:  accomplished
current music: Delerium - Underwater (Above & Beyond's 21st Century Remix Edit)
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
| |
12:22 am
|
Japan may have made some fucked up shit, but this... THIS... just... makes no sense.
That, by the way, is totally not safe for work. Or life.
Because that *points to link* is a hentai manga with Obama, Hillary, Taro Aso (current Prime Minister of Japan), and a maid. In a foursome.
My brain is officially broken.
current mood:  WTF
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
| Thursday, June 4th, 2009
| |
10:42 pm
|
|
Apparently all I ever do is talk about how horrible things are and how depressed I am. And that's why people keep walking out of my life. So. Sorry everyone.
|
|
|
| Thursday, May 28th, 2009
| |
3:59 am - A-kon, of course
|
Wow. I, um, actually might finish everything I need to for this con. I am terribly impressed. This is in compliance with my new "No Sewing Machines at Cons" rule.
Last Things I Have to Do at Home:
- Add silver trim to Allegretto's vest
- Clean out car
- Sketches for class: menswear (may not get colored though for I am lazy)
Things I Can Do At the Con/In the Car:
- Add buttons to Allegretto
- Cut out Zell's tattoo stencil
- Stitch closed lining on decora vest
- Attatch Allegretto's elbow patches
- Add fray-check to Finnys top's seams
Things I SHOULD Do, But Probably Won't:
- Sketches for class: knits, flats
- Chopin jeans for class (because I totally ironed the wrong side of the denim to my applique and have no more double-sided interfacing! D< )
I shall be sending out a mass text when I arrive at the hotel to those of whom I have numbers; if you don't know if I have your number, know for sure I don't have your number, or would like me to have your number/text you, send me a message! I'll check everything after class tomorrow right before we leave at 1:30.
~*~COSPLAY SCHEDULE~*~
+ Friday - Zell Dincht from FFVIII (photoshoot with Derek as Squall and Courtney as Quistis)
+ Ball - Furisode in full drag
+ Saturday - Allegretto (PS3 Alternate Costume Version) from Eternal Sonata
+ Rave - Albino Decora
+ Sunday - Finny from Kuroshitsuji (photoshoot with Holly, Bridget, Kyle, and JD; There will be STRAWBERRIES! ...at least, I hope so)
There will be ice skating in cosplay this year at some point. I keep meaning to do that, and, seeing how this is possibly my last A-kon, I better do it.
If you're going, what are you wearing when? Let's meet up and have a great time! :3
That con report and photos from Louisianime are coming, I promise!
current mood:  excited
current music: Sara Bareilles - City
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
| Wednesday, May 27th, 2009
| |
12:41 am
|
I am very tired. But I still have all this to do tonight and tomorrow:
- Add trim to Allegretto vest
- Add buttons to Allegretto vest
- Make/attatch Allegretto elbow patches
- Fix Allegretto's jewelry
- take stuff to storage
- clean car
- Cut out Zell's tattoo stencil
- Redo Zell's collar
- Finish Decora vest
- Homework for sketching class - knits, sundress flats, menswear
- Finish Chopin pants for Construction 1
- Laundry
- PACK!!
I lack motivation. Blargh.
Even moreso do I lack motivation since hearing about Prop 8 being upheld. Do you know what that means? It means Iowa is more social progressive than California.
IOWA.
Sure, same-sex unions are still recognized in CA, but they're not called "marriages". I know some people may say "So what? There's still equal rights." I disagree. It's not equal because it's not the same in every aspect. It can be the same in all aspects except name, but that's still not equal. Is even having "civil unions" for gay couples a step in the right direction? Yes. Should people stop fighting to be completely equal under the law? No.
I'm sure some people would call this an extreme comparison, but it reminds me of segregation in school systems: "separate yet equal". Except in this case it's "named differently but equal". But I feel that this different nomenclature still makes gay and lesbian couples second class citizens. It's the government telling us we're not good enough to be married like others who were born straight while we were born gay.
We should not be second class citizens. We are not second class citizens. We should not be treated as such or made to feel inferior in any way by our own governments, which are supposed to protect the very rights being denied us.
Government should not have any say in "marriage" anyway. "Marriage" is a religious state. A government should not be allowed to allow or deny "marriage" for straight or gay couples. Government should be allowed to grant "civil unions" for gay and straight couples alike and leave "marriage" to religious institutions.
But that's just my two cents. No one asked me.
current mood:  mopey
current music: Hedwig & the Angry Inch (OOBCR) - Wicked Little Town [Hedwig Version]
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
| Sunday, May 24th, 2009
| |
10:19 pm
|
I should be sewing. I really should be making my decora vest, but alas, I am an eediot and bought the wrong size D-rings, and Michael's didn't have the right size, and JoAnn's was already closed. So I have to wait until tomorrow to get the right size. So instead of sewing (for the moment), I'm playing Hotel Dusk, browsing Y-Gallery it's research for men's wear for my sketching class, really, and drinking tea.
Things I need to get done before Thursday (A-Kon!!! omgz noooooo):
- Add trim to Allegretto vest
- Add buttons to Allegretto vest
- Add zipper to Allegretto vest
- Allegretto elbow patches
- Fix Allegretto's jewelry
- take stuff to storage
- clean car
- Redo Zell's tattoo stencil
- Redo Zell's collar
- Finish Decora vest
- Make Kanzashi
- Find white pants
- Make new obi
- Make new cording for new obi
- Sketch for Pattern Drafting final
- Homework for sketching class - knits, sundress flats, menswear
- Finish Chopin pants for Construction 1
- Laundry
- PACK!!
current mood:  busy
current music: Pink - This is How It Goes Down
|
|
(5 comments | comment on this)
|
| |
5:50 am - Kanzashi
|
So one of the things I'm bringing to A-kon is my furisode, for the ball. And this year I've decided to make hair ornaments, or kanzashi.
So that'd be what I've spent the past four or so hours working on.
current mood:  tired
current music: X3: The Last Stand
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
| Saturday, May 23rd, 2009
| |
1:06 pm - Writer's Block: Don't Call It a Comeback
|
|
| Sunday, May 17th, 2009
| |
8:42 pm - Allegretto PS3 Alternate Costume Cosplay Progress Pics
|
|
| |
6:30 pm - Stolen from Duckie
|
ANIMATION MEME
- X what you saw
- O what you haven't finished/saw sizable portions
- Bold what you loved
- Strike for what you disliked/hated
- Leave unchanged if neutral
( Animation Meme )
|
|
(comment on this)
|
| Saturday, May 16th, 2009
| |
1:55 am
|
Okay.
I'm over it. Really.
I just have to vent sometimes, and LJ is my venting outlet. I'm not leaving LJ or anything. I'm still upset about the situation, but my anger is gone. It goes very quickly.
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
| Friday, May 15th, 2009
| |
4:12 am
|
|
Your result for The Social Persona Test (What kind of man/woman are you?)...
Lord of the Misfits (QLAM)Quirky Liberal Alpha Male 
You are similar to The Fratt Boy, in that you often try to take care of peers you percieve as less successful, but with the added benefit that you actually understand those on the fringes. You are a good ally to have, but people might be hurt if they believe your universal good will is a sign of a close friendship. You are nice to everyone, but you know who your true friends are. In terms of dating, you want someone who shares your interests; other than that, anything goes. You are more QUIRKY than NORMAL. You are more LIBERAL than TRADITIONAL. You are more DOMINANT than PASSIVE. When picking a date, consider: The Rarity (QTAF), The Renaissance Faire Wench (QLAF), The Librarian (QTBF), or The Emo Girl (QLBF) (Image from UNC Library Website)
Take The Social Persona Test (What kind of man/woman are you?) at HelloQuizzy
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
| Tuesday, May 12th, 2009
| |
1:15 am
|
Home from Louisianime and exhausted. Even if I slept through most of the return drive home. Con report and pictures to follow. But for now, please enjoy the bad-assedness of this photo, featuring Cardcaptor Sakura VS Pyramid Head that we took at A-Fest this last year.
current mood: exhausted
current music: Sarah McLachlan - Plenty
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
|
|
|
|
sleepy
0 (0.0%)
chipper